Wednesday, July 27, 2011

so this is life??

So here I am.

The baby is born (and 4 months old now!)

I have gone back to work - and survived it. Barely. It still breaks my heart daily and I spend every free second trying to come up with a way for me to stay home with him.

Life is settling in. For the most part. I haven't figured out where exercise fits in my day. I did great while I was still on maternity leave - but now that I work, the logistics of my day leave me exhausted.

Breastfeeding may burn hundreds of extra calories - which I am fairly certain I consume with all the sugary foods I crave (damn you Starbucks for introducing the Birthday Cake Pop!)

I worked hard during my pregnancy, and I am proud that my weight gain didn't get out of hand, but it's hard to look at what my body is now, and remember what it was before Gabe. Will it ever be that again? How will I find the time to get back to that?

Every once in a while, I consider giving up nursing so that I can get back to my extreme dieting - but my heart isn't ready for that. I guess my option for now, is to be okay with my post-baby, pleasantly plump, body. Because after all...I just had a baby...



  1. you well know, these little ones grow sooooo fast. Enjoy each moment you having nursing little Gabe. There will be time later for the extreme dieting you were doing before. Those moments once gone, are gone forever.

    Love you!

  2. I think you look fabulous and happy. It took nine months to gain the weight, take your time. You will find a way to get the exercising back in, don't go extreme. DO it the right way when all parts are ready.

  3. Right. It's going to be ok. I love you.

  4. It's so challenging to go back to work and still nurse, I've been there so I can say that with conviction! :) I'm personally really proud of you for working so hard at all that being a great mom means. Even sacrificing your own health goals a little bit, for your little sweetie-pie. Just remember that it's not forever, just until you are done nursing.
    Love yourself as much as you love your children, you deserve that!!

  5. Thank you for this most lovely God-filled that I have found you I will be back often..