Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Emotional Eater

Fist of all, I would just like to mention that it is 3:30am as I write this. That's right - I said 3:30 AM. No need to adjust your screen, there is nothing wrong with your eyes...3:30. There is however, something wrong with my eyes...everything is blurry. Could that be because it's 3:30 in the freaking morning??? Ugh!

Hope came into my room at 2:45 this morning needing some love. I was totally fine with that because last night I had one of the worst nights as a parent - we haven't had a night like this is a long, long time.

I posted on Facebook last night that I thought my kids had been possessed by evil beings.

I wasn't kidding. WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE???

Disciplinary action had to be taken with both kids. That's the part I hate. No one wants to end their day that way.

After we prayed and the kids were finally in bed - I did what any rational mom would do - I poured myself a huge glass of whatever alcoholic beverage I could find. Just Kidding! I did however, drive to the store and buy myself the one thing that could make my day better.

Tillamook Chocolate Peanut Butter ice cream.

Maybe I should have stuck with the alcohol.

While I was skillfully extracting the gorgeous ribbons of salty deliciousness that is the peanut butter, I couldn't help but realize just how much I am the classic emotional eater. I wasn't hungry, I wasn't even really having a craving - but for some reason my mind thinks that eating will solve everything. The part that amazes me is that even though I know better - even though I have the worst stomach ache in the world right now - even though I am pretty sure I gained 45 pounds last night - I still haven't learned my lesson.

I must have some sort of undiscovered learning disability.

I was going to do a weigh in this morning since it's been a while, but I am thinking I might wait. Pretty sure the scale isn't going to have anything nice to say to me this morning.

Praise God we wake up every morning and get a "do over." Me and my kids certainly need it!


  1. Do-overs are a good thing. Happy belated birthday wishes... a wishes for a much better day today!

  2. Why do we do this to ourselves? It really must be giving into the "it doesn't matter anyway" way of thinking...i'm right there with you girl...stess is big-time in my life right now...I'm just praying for strength and hope...and that I don't undo the progress of the last 6 months. So very thankful that HIS mercies are new every morning...Happy Birthday!

  3. Love you ... wish I could have helped you extract. <3


  4. Hey you! Just wanted to leave a note and let you know I still check in every now and then. I'm so not ready as you discussed in a previous post and being pregnant hasn't helped that! ;) Anyways, I do love ya, and I'm out here in cyber space supporting you. I haven't been reading anything regularly now that summer is here, but if weight/health ever comes up I love referring friends to your blog. Keep up the good work and blogging!!

  5. Yay for do overs! :) Love that picture.

  6. I'm thinking about the Hershey's with almonds that I ate yesterday...yipes...

  7. Hello! I just posted about wanting bloggers to guest spot about weight loss success. Would love it if you would participate!
    Jenn - Bridgetown Baby Momma