It wasn't what I had expected. I had anticipated the excitement, joy and pride I would feel when I finally got to this place. I'm not sure why my expectations were so high. I didn't anticipate that I would feel "normal." The same way I felt every other day - but that's what it felt like. In fact everything was normal that day.
When I got on the scale, the numbers flashed. I did the math and realized - I had lost 101 pounds. This was my milestone. I had been counting down.
I kept it a secret all day long. I didn't talk about it, I didn't think about it until my day was over and I was wondering why I wasn't talking about it. Why didn't I tell my husband, or my best friends. Why didn't I tell my sister or my trainer...all day long, I just kept it to myself. It bothered me a little that I didn't want to share my accomplishment. Was I disappointed? I sort of wonder if I had thought that the scale would throw confetti at me or something. As if this stupid machine had any clue at what I have accomplished. There was no confetti.
It's March 4th now. I am ready to share. I have decided that it felt good to keep that secret to myself for a day. To look back on what it took to get to this very moment. I am okay that there was no party or drama (or confetti) when it happened. It reminds me of the morning my son was born. When no body knew except Chad and I that he was here. That moment when the secret is bigger then all of us. When it is so exciting you feel like you might explode, but the joy is just as big and you feel like keeping it all for yourself. That was my March 3rd 2010. I have decided it was perfect.
I do think the scale that throws confetti is a great idea. Any investors?
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Congratulaions!! I am so happy for you!!
ReplyDeleteI agree, a confetti scale would be great!!
Again, way to go!!!
YIPPEE!!!!!
ReplyDeleteRemember when you took me shopping and bought me those brown pants? You mentioned something about them being "little." They would fit you now. I looked for them. I wanted to send them to you. I can't remember if someone borrowed them or what, but I can't find them.
ReplyDeletewhat a milestone! woohooo!!! congrats to you--i'm so excited for you!!! keep up the awesome work! :)
ReplyDeleteWords can not express how hapy I feel for you. You have worked so hard for this and you are such an inspiration!!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm on day 5 of 21 and I will do a post this weekend. It's mind over matter and I've done really well. I never would have done it without you :)
xoxo
WOW! Congrats!!!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine how I would feel to reach a goal like that... I hope you are SO proud of your accomplishments! That took hard work and dedication!!
Mikal
Sounds perfectly reasonable to me. Some things are meant to be secretly cherished. I can relate, but not with the weight loss. At least NOT YET!
ReplyDeleteBUT STILL, WAY TO GO JETTA!
I do hope that you know what you have accomplished on your own with hard work and determination is an inspiration to those of us who share your struggle with food addiction. Thank you for being so candid and open about your journey. Your blog is a blessing!
I felt that way when we received our referral package with our very first glimpse of our daughter. Our entire community was waiting for that big day but I just wanted to keep it to myself for a little while. She was all mine and I didn't want to share her. I had waited so long and been through so many ups and downs along the way. The wait and the roller coaster ride was finally over and it was real.
Congratulations Jetta! That is great news, I'm glad you decided to share. Keep up the great work, you are inspiring all of us!
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