One of the things I struggle with - is the ability to know when to stop. I could literally eat - especially candy or ice cream (sugar is my drug of choice) all day long and never know when to stop. I told my doctor that it is as if I don't have an "off switch."
Most people get full, or start to get a tummy ache or SOMETHING that tells them it's time to put the candy down. Not I. I just keep going and going and going... kind of like the Energizer bunny. In fact, I am fairly certain we are related.
At any rate, I have started noticing tummy aches when eating things that aren't good for me. I know it's fine to have a few of something... At first I was annoyed with the tummy ache - until I noticed that pattern and the fact that it was making me want to stop eating whatever I was munching on.
It's almost as if - after almost 2 years - I am slowing growing my off switch.
Won't that be nice???
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Jetta,
ReplyDeleteI don't know if people reading your blog understand that your relationship with food is an addition, just like an alcoholic. A alcoholic cannot have just one drink, they want 50. They don't have a "off switch" Once it's turned on it's always "on." When their bodies can't take it anymore they will start to get sick as soon as 1 drink, but sometimes that doesn't stop them from drinking because the addict in them can't stop. When they sober up it's a every day struggle for the rest of their lives. Some make it and some don't.
I think it's important for people to realize that your struggle with food and sugar is the same thing. You can't turn the switch off, but you learn to control it. I think people need to realize that what you have accomplished is simple amazing. Realizing that you have an addiction to food and doing something about it. They say only a small percentage of people a year can beat it and you are one them. Jetta, you are so strong and I know at times you don't feel that way, but are my super chick :)
Jetta,
ReplyDeleteI'm so very proud of you. Carrie is right: the battle you're fighting is one of addiction, not even necessarily choice. The fact that you desire these changes so much means your body will eventually learn what you want it to know -- the process is hard, but worth it.
You're beautiful, strong and amazing.
Love you,
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