It is important to me to be candid about my journey. It is even more important to me to be held accountable to what I said I would do. To where I said I wanted to go. That's why it is important to me to tell you that as of this morning, I have officially gained 6 pounds back. In the 2 weeks since the wedding, I have let my guard down, taken a break and allowed myself to self-soothe with food. I have allowed myself to fall back into the same habits and patterns that got me in this mess to begin with. Now, I could give you all of the excuses - there have been a couple big things - but I am going to skip that part. No matters what happens to me, the response was my decision.
I think the biggest difference this morning - as I sit and contemplate all of this - is that I know that I CAN start over. There is still time to finish this. I am grateful that everyday I wake up is one more chance to love, try and succeed. I love that I still have people who believe in me more than I do on the bad days. People who believe in me no matter what I eat. I have people who see a strong, determined (some would say stubborn) person who is achieving my goal. They tell me. They don't doubt I will finish. From that, I can take the little pieces I am missing, and fill in the blank spots in my resolve.
This is me being accountable. Today, I am starting over. The last two weeks, were not a failure....just a minor setback.
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Cheering for you!!! You are so right, just a minor setback. That 6 pounds and more will be gone before you know it. Keep the faith :)
ReplyDeleteGirl please! That 6#'s hasn't got a chance against you and the other NINETY pounds you've lost!! You've got this!!! Appreciate the honesty as always, it's all about choices and thank goodness we have today to try again. :)
ReplyDeleteYou can do it!
ReplyDeleteYou HAVE, you CAN, and you WILL. Love you.
ReplyDeleteWonderful post. We are all human and we all have our moments of backsliding. I have no doubt that you will be back 100%.
ReplyDeleteI was scrolling through my blog list this morning and when I saw yours I decided to skip it because in the past few days I have resorted to using food to comfort me and have not been listening to the prompting of the Lord when it comes to food and my addiction.
ReplyDeleteBut the Lord sent me right back to it and when I read it I found renewed strength in your words. I know that I am not a failure. What I don't know is why I continue to turn my back on the work that God is TRYING to do in my life.
I'm cheering for you and I truly appreciate your openness in your successes and your setbacks. You are an inspiration, plain and simple!
My friend - I had a moment this afternoon to visit your blog to catch up and I was not prepared for what happened next. I started crying because of your beautiful heart and the way you have of expressing it. Keep working at being happy with yourself, because we all are! love, Wanda
ReplyDeleteI love you nar nar and am so proud of you! If I admitted to my set backs on what I struggle with (worry), I would have to admit it everyday! We are all human and it wouldn't be called a struggle or addiction if it was easy. Just a little test I call it. Sometimes God wants to make sure we are relying on him through our struggles so he gives us a little test. The fact that you are aware of it and are willing to admit it is awesome and shows that you will succeed! You can do all things through him who gives you strength! Keep your eyes on the finish line!!! Becky
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