Sunday, February 21, 2010

A Special Moment

This weekend my husband I had the rare opportunity to go out on a "date." This doesn't happen very often, and it has definitely been WAY too long since the last time. Chad and I went to Red Robin (I had my usual, the lettuce wrapped turkey burger) and then we went shopping. I had some gift cards from my girl friends burning a whole in my wallet so we headed to The Gap.

When we walked in, Chad saw this shirt:

and loved it, so I grabbed a large to try on. I took my pile of stuff back into the dressing room, and tried to show him what I was trying on, but he was never really around to show. Finally, I just had him come into the dressing room with me. I tried the shirt on for him. It fit perfectly - but since it's a tank top, we decided I should try the medium since it would still be a few months before I would really be wearing a tank. Chad brought the medium back and I looked at just looked SO SMALL. There was no way....
But you know what??? IT FIT! A medium fit me! I have NEVER IN MY LIFE WORN A MEDIUM!!! I looked at Chad, and I burst into tears. Chad hugged me and told me he loved me.

This might seem silly but for me this was a turning point. You see, I have accomplished many things over the last 17 months, and the victories have all been significant. For some reason though, I have kept my husband at arms length. I have celebrated with everyone but him. This moment, as small as it may seem, is permanently engraved in my memory. It made my heart feel like exploding and it made me realize...

This man, even though he has definately had his not so great moments - has also stood by me through all of mine. Almost 2 decades of putting up with my crap. He deserved to celebrate with me this whole time.

I love that moment in the dressing room. I will never forget it. It will be the start of something new for me, and I am thankful that Chad has stuck around long enough to share that with me.


  1. Jetta: I am tearing up. You've earned every "tiny" square inch of that medium top... You are such an inspiration :)

  2. So glad you got time out with your husband! And an opportunity to celebrate your accomplishments between the two of you. You deserve it!

  3. What a fantastic day! When we have taken a certain size for so long it is very hard to adjust your thinking that you really are smaller! Good for you Jetta ~ as Nancy said you earned it girl!

  4. Made me cry tears of joy!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

  5. I tried on a pair of size 18 jeans today just to see how much more weight I would need to lose to fit them......FIT PERFECTLY!!! In fact...I had to buy them! I haven't worn that size in almost 25 years!
    Thanks for sharing your journey...makes mine easier to travel.

  6. This is such a terrific post. I am so happy you share this journey. Your experiences and stories stay in my head and encourage me to keep going.

  7. Lena~

    I absolutely LOVE that for you!!! Congratulations. Don't get too attached to those jeans, they won't fit for long! :)

  8. Well, I just found your blog again and sit at work with tears. That is beautiful. Congratulations on the medium yes, but blessings to you on what you found in your Chad and your wanting to celebrate your life, your victories and even your challenges. Beautiful.

  9. Thanks alot! I'm sitting at my desk at work with black tears (that would be wet mascara) streaming down my face now.......there is a man in the office out front watching me with a puzzled look as I type this.......

    I can't tell you how happy I am that you had that moment with your husband, so awesome!

  10. This is such a milestone ... I'm so happy for you my dear friend. I love every {tiny} bit of you!!

  11. Since I'm "catching up" on your blog, I'm trying to resist commenting on every post. Since you got me all teary-eyed though...that's it really. Teary-eyed and loving your blog. I'm soooo happy you got back in the water, that you have someone great like Debbie, and I love Hopes neener neener pic. :D