I LOVE MY...

Yesterday I got in a fight with one of my favorite people. I won't go into details, they know who they are. For obvious reasons, the fight put a pretty big damper on my day. That evening I got to have some time to think - and the events of the day lead to some pretty significant processing. Here's what I came up with.

I have an amazing husband, and I have amazing friends. My family is of course amazing as well, but they didn't get to pick me. My husband and my friends chose me. They met me,learned me and saw enough in me to choose me. Since I think my people are the best ever, I realized that it must be a little insulting for them to have to put up with the extreme nature of my negative self image. My friends know that I am worth it, and they have chosen to stick it out. The ones who couldn't see my value, left a long time ago, and that's okay. The one's that are left are real.

Here's the other thing about the friends I have now - they all attend my pity parties. I have hosted MANY pity parties over the last few years, and they have all showed up. The difference I can see in these people, is that after my pity party, they all called me on my crap. We will all have these parties, and we do need guests to attend - but let's be honest, pity parties should be short and sweet. They are not a good place to hang out. My favorite people are willing to attend, but they do not let me hang out there.

Since I believe my friends are some of the wisest, funnest, coolest people on earth, it's time that I believe that they chose me for a reason. I do know that God has given me a heart to love my people. I love to serve my friends. God made me capable of being a great friend to others. He gave me characteristics that make me lovable and valuable. I haven't seen them for a long time - but my husband and friends have.

Thank you for loving me. Thank you for seeing something worth loving. Moving forward I promise to make a conscious effort to find value in myself. I will work at biting my tongue when I want to criticize or make fun of myself. I can't promise all of this today - but I will work on it. And since I know you so well, if I don't do these things, I know you will call me on it. I LOVE YOU!